much as i love my life, i'm pretty stressed out and sick of it right now. i am on my sleep rotation at the moment so i go in from 8pm-8am and then sleep all day. i'm up now, so i can study for my pre-rotational exam which i'm wigging out about because i don't really know what to focus on. i'm told by everyone who wrote it that "it's not too hard" but that really doesn't help my manic pessimisstic mind find a focal point and just calm down, focus and run with. add to that the fact that i have really weird dreams when i sleep during daylight hours. i dreamt at was part of some swimming/sex club where you swim square laps in a square pool and guys judge you on it and then pluck you out of the water to sleep with you. no one plucked me and i felt a mixture of relief and total rejection at this. maybe this dream means i really need to go swimming, or at least get laid. then i was at cathaleens farm, which was smaller but still her farm. we were feeding carrots that grew in a loop shape to all these funny little birds. they were all different and i swear to god they were robots. it was most definately the future and everything still looked the same, but had a metallic glean to it like it might all be manufactured. there was more to it, they really was much much more. cathaleen and her farm have been central to my dreams lately and it tells me that i really do need to see her. but how to you get a hold of the hardest person in the world to get a hold of? maybe i ought to just shut up and at least try.
i ate peach yoguort with quaker harvest crunch for breakfast. oh quaker, you make damn good cereal. but i bet you'd sell me into the swimming sex trade. i'm going to study now. what fun! it will be because that's the attitude i'd better have in order to get anything done.
i'm damn pissed i could not get tickets to the metric. 3 shows! and the chance to finally experience the wonder that is the lovely feathers, live! and by the time i figure out my stupid ICU schedule, they are ALL SOLD OUT! damn de de damn damn. there i still a chance i can win them through the sonic glee club. i look forward to hearing the news that i've won.
the only thing i have planned for this weekend is to work a wedding doing photography with harmen. it will only be about 4 hours. the rest of my time is FREE! i look forward to making it all up as i go along. there are so many possibilities. the most possible being sitting in my flannel pooh bear pjs all day scrapbooking... oh ya!
love ya all, i'll try and be around in blogginess a little more frequently.
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