i don't know what i'm doing.

i patiently waited for 18  months of unemployment. and it was hard. and now he has a job. and everything felt good and right again. so good and so right, that i think it's the right time to have another baby. i brought it up as we went to bed. immediate panic from him and him not wanting to talk about it right now, and why did you bring this up as we are going to bed. well, because i thought it was something we could just rationally talk about. nope. i'm so confused. he says he needs stability first. and what's the rush? well, baby is nearly 2. 2 years apart would be ideal. but that's not possible now. 3 years apart is the most i want. i just feel like it's right. i don't want them to be 5 years apart.

he's very sensitive. i feel i can't communicate with him. there is no right time to approach him about anything just in case i rock the boat.

i want this so badly it hurts. and now we are in a communication breakdown.