note* sometime last week my dear dear brother managed to completely kill the computer. thus, much of my writing to this point has been lost, never to be retrived from neither the computer's, nor my own, memory. this piece was recovered from an email i had sent matty matterton from mattville at one point in time. it's not very good. this i recognize. but it's mine! and i have it back! so... haha!


found ramblings
mjd sometime in 2002

i tell him
i have to write something
and it has to be funny
it has to make people laugh
i think it can't be a commentary on suicide
or genocide or death or any kind of cide

i say that if i were to write about that,
i would be hauled away
yay! it's psychiatric evaluation day!
people in soft voices, wearing soft colours,
telling me "it will be ok."

then, on the back on the evalation
i could draw a picture of a man
jumping from a cliff
suspended in mid air
with a little speech bubble that says
"i'm having second thoughts."

but that was his idea and not mine
maybe they'll take us away on the same day
so as the world ends we can play scrabble

i want to draw pictures i say
screw words and their proverbial nonsense
i hate to be misread
well, i believe that's visual arts, he says
well, maybe i'll switch i say

hold on, someone's at the door.
this will all be ok?
i'm having second thoughts