silly me. i miss my brother. i missed him pretty much the second he moved out. i didn't even help him move. can't recall why really. surely school, school is always my excuse for things i want to do and can't. i never realized this before, but on saturday mornings when i'd sleep in, resting in bed in that pre-wake up stage, i'd wait to hear if matt was up and that was my indication as 'well, might as well get up too. if i get up now, we can eat cereal together.' la sigh. i miss telling him random stuff. i guess when you live with someone you take for granted how easy it is to spontaneously communicate. i almost have to write stuff down now so i can remember things to tell him when we get eachother on the phone.

things to tell matt,

1) i miss you
2) i am so stressed out right now
3) i would like to go for lunch
4) there was a rabbit on the lawn the other day and he was huge!
5) i think i know what to get you for christmas but i will have to go out and find it to make sure
6) i am oh-so-sick with this weird cold flu throat nauseous thing and i threw up last night
7) i can't decide if i like ballet or if it actually is boring
8) do male ballerina's wear underwear under those tights? i could see their penis' outline and it was nearly indecent
9) i really could have been a ballerina

i'm looking forward to next thursday so much! then i will be done my exams, i can paint my room and start to move. on boxing day, i think i will buy my bed and then get mattresses ASAP. i do have the money (i wrote funny instead of money before... that's funny!) for it now but once i spend it, i will be low. very low. my new room will be just awesome! i'm so pumped.

now, back to fundamental procedures.