i work tomorrow. this week may proof to be a little crazy. i work 12s tuesday, wednesday, thursday, have friday off, then work 12s saturday, sunday and monday. whooo.

was a good weekend though. movies with alex on friday and hanging on, laughing till my face hurt. saturday, went to ikea and looked at random things, restrained myself and bought only a few. sunday, had lunch and shopped with jill who i hadn't seen in way past forever! was great fun! then celebrated alex's dad's bday at his house. mmmm carrot cake! today i stayed in bed for most of it with a splitting headache. i had a really bad one saturday night too that caused me to stay in, rather than out, and just watch movies. i don't know, it was similar to the stress headaches i sometimes had in school, yet it lasted longer and hurt more and was light sensitive. i felt like vomitting. i'm making a doctor's appointment for my one day off this week just to make sure i don't have a brain tumor.

today i met with nadia for coffee and she informed me that a guy i used to be friends, was crushed, no no, she said, "devastated" and that i "ruined him" when i denied his affections for me. i was like, 'great. fuck.' cause it's not that he wasn't a great guy, and just that i was head over heels in love with an asshole of a guy i was with at the time. and even if i hadn't been with that asshole, i still doubt i could have seen him as anything other than a friend. he's just not that way. he never was. and i was never anything but clear about that at that time. it's frustrating. because i never ever ever would have wanted to cause him pain. it sucks. i don't know why she told me or what good it did. i'm actually mad at her because she made me feel like a bad person, which i'm not. why would she even bring this up 4 years down the road? what did she gain? some friend. what it really comes down to is that i have very few real girl friends.

current mood: melancholy
current music: angels and airwaves