we are trying to have a baby! and by trying, i mean not trying at all lol. but i am off birth control and we are just going with the flow. he told me that he was ready right before baby a's 2nd birthday. i hadn't stopped thinking about it, not for a second, but i had let it go and come to realize that he had to be ready and that that wasn't going to happen through anything i did or didn't do. and it was true. and he came around and said he had just needed time to process it. we are in a good place! baby a is wonderful, and sleeping well, spring is here and we are readying our garden, and a has just accepted a new job at a new place. he was very unhappy at the first place. and if there's anything the past two years have taught us, it's how to recognize when you are unhappy, and realizing you and only you, have the power to change that.

i am excited!