today was not a good day at work. i'm tired. and grumpy. and it was so hot. plus, jon gave me the option of driving a tractor on the road that i had never driven on the road before and had not driven since last summer. i said no. i drove it back at the end of the day though once i had more practice on it and he told me, "you really should be confident at this by now. i don't get what your issue is with shifting down and why you worry about it. it's the same as shifting up. your an Op I, you should get it by now." i said, "oh how do you figure?" because i have had very little experience driving these tractors in a setting that shifting is neccessary and zero experience driving a standard in real life. so fuck you jon. i learn at my own pace and i can't explain why shifting down is so much harder. i'm not even that bad at it, but i'm still only sometimes smooth. tomorrow will suck too.