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i went to see sandy today and she fixed me right up. i've been fighting a cold, and not very well at that as i've felt pretty shitty for the past 2 days. it's in my throat and jaw and messing with my head. also, my back has been falling apart since last week. she cracked me in 2 places and i felt all my verterbrae slide back into place. the rest was all gentle manipulation. i love that lady. she is so godlike. if any of you faithful readers need fixing, physically or spiritually, let me know and i'll send you to sandy.

so since i've been feeling so run down, i have not been working out which makes me feel more run down and guilty on top of it. i did not work out last thursday because i had an appointment, skipped friday because i was tired, worked a wedding saturday and pulled lazy again on sunday. i went on monday and my work out buddy was back from mexico. mexico is crazy. so is trevor. i will say no more other than the idea of an "adult only" resort is pretty repulsive to me. and then i did not go yesterday because i am sick and same for today and i had to see sandy. i will go tomorrow even if it kills me. i work canada day at double time and half, whoop! whoop! and need to see my baby that day too as i leave on saturday so chances are i will not work out friday either. then i'm spending the week on vancouver island where my body will most likely turn to mush and all my hard work will be reversed. sigh. this sucks. i'm actually worried about it. i'm bringing my work out clothes so nina and i can go to the rec center there, but who knows. we may not actually end up doing anything. maybe we'll go trail running or something.

other news: beau called me on monday night and he is on his navy boat in alaska somewhere. he will not be on the island this year when we are so we can't see eachother. that makes me a little sad because i haven't seen him since last fall, but what can you do? nature has a way of timing things and since timing did not work out, i take it it was meant to be that way. he has been dating malaina (sp?) for 8 months now and he plans to propose to her on november 10th, their 1 year anniversary. i hope it works out because i do remember him telling me before how he had been in love like this and ready to propose and it all fell apart. i hope she loves him just as much because i never want to witness his heart break.

i have mostly packed. i am so excited! i just have a few more shirts to add to my clothes and i need to decide on a sweater. i know i'm bringing too many shirts (7) because i bring that many ever year and only end up wearing the same 3 over and over again but i want to keep my options opened. i have 2 pairs of jeans because i could not choose, 2 pairs of shorts and my jean skirt. i should really only bring the skirt because i lived in it last year and a pair of jeans, just in case. i'd rather be over prepared though.

i'm excited: i'm going to see delle and carol. i'm sad: i'm going to miss alex and wish he could come too. i'm terrified: i have to face that grandpa's physical presence no longer exists. i'd rather not see that, but i have to and i think it will really give me the closure i need. i miss you grandpa. i still think about you all the time. i love you!