i'm a damn fool. the day before 2 midterms and i'm in freak out mode yet again! i had the whole weekend? why didn't i use it? why why why? it doesn't seem serious until the day before! thing is, i really wanted to well on these 2 because i wasn't overly enthuised with my marks on the first 2 having missed a week of school prior to them. and now, i've screwed myself over yet again! wasting time! i just throw it away like it isn't even a factor. dumbass! i wish i could fast forward through tonight and tomorrow, like closing your eyes in the scary parts of a movie. then when someone ask, "so, how do you think you did?" my answer would be "don't know, i closed my eyes." and then i wouldn't even know until i got my test back. oh life. i HAVE to go!