1st Day Back

i am listening to the album by franz ferdinand and enjoying it. it's making my mood much better. today, i was overall crabby.

a.m.
i wanted to go to victoria march 25th-27th or longer for my grandpa's memorial. i don't even know if i get the good friday (the 25th) off of school. that's bullshit if i don't. turns out that my finals are that week (march 21st-25th). i wrote diane an email to see if i could take
off on the 24th or something for that and she said, "i could always arrange with my instructors to write my finals earlier." uh! if that's what i have to do, then that's what i'll do. you'd think there could be another way considering what it's for?? no? no. guess not. blah. why do i feel like school is just something i have to do that just continues to get in the way of the rest of my life?

my stomach hurts.

p.m.
i have returned from school. i bought the only books that i could from the bookstore. 2 notes packs and 1 textbook for $110. how is that worth it? bastards. i have 3 books that i apparently needed for last semester that i have never opened and they were never referenced.

i did feel good this morning. not so much anymore though. no sooner did i tell alex i'm not getting sick that my throat started to hurt. grrrr. i found out today that vickie and steph plan to stay afterschool and work out so i guess i have to do that too which i really don't want to because i like to work out at home and not in front of people. plus, all i have are pretty hot looking work out clothes and today they were making fun of people who wear anything other than sweats. they both gained weight over xmas and i lost weight so i just feel uncomfortable about working out with them. also, i want to work out with candace maybe except i don't have money to buy a pass... whatever, i want to workout alone. so, ya, i'm frustrated about that. also, my back is killing me! it has been since i woke up! i either hurt it or else i have meningitis.

i wrote that to alex and he called me whiny. i am whiny today.

guess i'm not working out at school tomorrow because vickie has to work. would have been nice to know she has a job and when she has to work in case i need to go to the doctor someday or something. steph told me. vickie has not even called me back yet and i called her at 7:30pm. so yea! i get to work out at home. just like i wanted. i had a crappy workout today but that's what tomorrow is for.

i need a job. where can i work? suggestions?