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my newest great ideas involve various fantasies of what it will be like when i move out. how i will decorate my bathroom and house in cool, trendy, yet not too trendy to need motification every year, decor. how i will take photos i have taken and frame them and combine them with other medium and hang them throughout the house and they will all be different enough that guests will ask, "where did you get this?" and still be very surprised that they are all my creation. i will have a house warming party where the only gifts i want are for all my friends to be there and bring a bottle of wine to share. we will listen to great music and i will cover a table and floor with newspapers, buy a canvas or make one out of a cardboard box, and throughout the night, my guests will sit down and paint on this canvas. the next morning, those who have stayed over will eat french toast with me and we will marvel at our creation. i will hang it in the dining room, or kitchen. i will have a garden where i grow veggies and alex will be proud of me and my green thumb. he'll come over everyday and slowly begin to move his stuff in. we'll renovate whenever we want and collaborate design ideas. i will live close enough to work that i can jog there on ambitious days, and just far enough away that when i am home, i feel i am truly away from work. i'll keep pretty little gold fish in the sitting room, and they won't die on me. the bathroom will have a bookshelf and i will not be ashamed to admit that i read on the toilet. it will be there for all to see and start a trend of openness amongst the fashionably forward whom i will most obviously associate with. there will be dinner parties. and quite nights with just alex and i, books and a fireplace. there will be walks, and the scent of lavender in the evening because i will grow it in the front flower bed, next to the porch. there may not be a formal porch, but there will at least be a really great front step, and back one too, with room enough for 2 good friends to sit and chat over a cup of tea. i will have a bbq and neighbours who watch out for eachother. maybe the next door neighbours will be slightly older than me, a little bit further ahead, and have a young child. we will chat over the back fench and shovel eachothers walks out of courtesy in the winter. maybe the wife and i will occasionally shop together and if alex isn't around, the husband will be able to fix my broken down lawnmower. they will have a dog and be ok with me taking him for jogs, because the both of them maybe work weird hours and can't always find the time.....

and on and on and on until the day it all comes true.