Grey

i've been down all day and now i know why. it's not just because delle left after we had such a great time. i had momentary joy later on while making her christmas gift. it's because i've been let down. all i wanted all day was to see alex and talk to him about things and some stuff i've been worrying about regarding a friend of mine. it was important. i wanted to talk to him in person and not on the phone. he was late. so late i told him not to come over. i'm going to bed now because i have to be up at 5:30am. had he still been coming over, he still wouldn't be here. now i'm mad at him and he knows it and i don't even want to talk about it.

aaron called. i'm very glad. i cannot wait to see her at the end of the week. we are going for drinks on friday.

i'm upset right now. i don't know if i should get it over with and cry or just think it out and get over it.

sigh. i'm going to call him. this negative energy is doing me more harm than good.