great day today. started off with running. a hard run. not an easy run. did the usual but so much harder. was hungry. maybe that's why. shower. love my shower! talked to alex n. who is now here. told her i may not see her today as cat and i were going shopping. would call her around 4 to let her know how time was going. she took it to mean for sure 4, i'm sure of it. cat came. we shopped! we bought many nice things. it was very fun. we cried in jacob as i told her about grandpa. hugs and sobs in the busy mall during the christmas rush. candles, lavender and caramel. blank cards. nice shoes that look chinese and are made in china. they are like mary janes with a square toe. i love them. cat got catwomen boots for only $30. practically a steal! called alex. no way i'd make it out with her today. she said it was ok but i can already hear her whining to her mom about how i stood her up eventhough i didn't. grrr. i will see her tomorrow provided she doesn't put it off. for some reason, she cannot see me tonight. oh well. i have time. but my life already has plans in it other than her. ate dinner. fried rice and salad. tres yummy. had 3 caramels. today has been bad for candy. i have had 5 caramels and a cookie. well... that's not too bad actually. today, i just feel like being hard on myself because i had a bad run. yesterday, could not watch napoleon dynamite becuase i had to rig up my dvd player through the vcr due to the fact that the tv is so old. put in the dvd and it's all crappy up top because of copy protection. need some special cable if i want a good picture through the dvd to vcr to tv. who knew? i was so proud to have it set up. so giddy to see napoleon and then i had to die due to disappointment. i will watch it tonight with the parental units and maybe boyfriend. he seems down though... why? i dunno why. i am a happy girl. i want to stay this way forever.